...1 leap second is added

...and i think many years are added to my life..i am at my oldest age now ..longest year ..worst year ..some good and most bad moments..40K in account every month and being unsatisfied day by day....was in crowd always but so lonely...laughed, joked, was in tension ,frustrated even cried..was mad, crazy, passionate, mature, coward...got many things n lost again..Hopped, stopped, fell , rose and fell again , kneeling now...

hey its 12'..reading old sms..not-deleted..should i message ? or not ? or what ? what should i write? zop model ? ratra vait jail nahitar ugach nakoch karayala..will i get message ? dont know..how strange ? even dont know this..did i understand at that time too ? or now ?in future ? can i ever ? at least saying 'happy new year' ? 'take care'? 'next year will be good'? 'dont lose hope'? just blank message ? or not ? or just "u have got to hide your ....." Eddie plz stop ...sent..

....so job change tension..some good some bad decisions...being anti-family-man...loved ..lost..changed a lot in this year..who i was before i cannot recall..got some good frnds...got to know so many good, better things..took some steps toward wat i wanted to do always..all in all...longest year...not just 1 leap second is added but tons of memories ....

P.S.
- happy new year sagar..may God bless u ..
-same to u ...