...1 leap second is added

...and i think many years are added to my life..i am at my oldest age now ..longest year ..worst year ..some good and most bad moments..40K in account every month and being unsatisfied day by day....was in crowd always but so lonely...laughed, joked, was in tension ,frustrated even cried..was mad, crazy, passionate, mature, coward...got many things n lost again..Hopped, stopped, fell , rose and fell again , kneeling now...

hey its 12'..reading old sms..not-deleted..should i message ? or not ? or what ? what should i write? zop model ? ratra vait jail nahitar ugach nakoch karayala..will i get message ? dont know..how strange ? even dont know this..did i understand at that time too ? or now ?in future ? can i ever ? at least saying 'happy new year' ? 'take care'? 'next year will be good'? 'dont lose hope'? just blank message ? or not ? or just "u have got to hide your ....." Eddie plz stop ...sent..

....so job change tension..some good some bad decisions...being anti-family-man...loved ..lost..changed a lot in this year..who i was before i cannot recall..got some good frnds...got to know so many good, better things..took some steps toward wat i wanted to do always..all in all...longest year...not just 1 leap second is added but tons of memories ....

P.S.
- happy new year sagar..may God bless u ..
-same to u ...

I am Sorry !

On fone…

She : अरे किती late.. just 10 min to start the show..

He : अरे 1 parcel द्यायाचय friend ला ...आलोच 5 मिनिटात ..plz wait

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She : height आहेस ..मी इथे एकटी आहे …5 min बाकि आहे ..3 वेळा फ़ोन केला उचलत जा ना ..

He : अरे driving करत होतो …गाड़ी चालवू की फ़ोन घेऊ ..आलोच ..ठेवतो ..

She : तू मार खानारेस …सगला दिवस waste केलास तू …मला हा show पहायचाय .. एकतर किती yrs ने आलाय.... ये ना लवकर ..

He : YUP ... अडीच मिनिटात आलोच ..ठेवतो …

She : get lost….

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On SMS…

She : get lost …मी जातिये एकटी ..तुला यायचं असेल तर ये ..i don’t wanna miss this bcoz of ur stupid parcel..go to hell courier boy !

She : भूता सारखी wait करतीये मी ..कोणी बाहेर पण नाहीये screen च्या …

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Movie started ॥special show of DDLJ…her favorite movie..

On SMS

She : started m watching… लवकर येना.

She : reply नाही केलास तरी मी राग काढत राहणारे तुज्यावर ….एकटी आहे मी …first scene ला पण नाहीयेस तू …

She : final GET LOST … waste केलाय तू माझा special day .. consider this my last SMS to u…

She : now this one is last SMS .Next scene is birthday scene…bye…but missing u !

And birthday चा scene येतो ….she is about to pick her mobile to message him..

अचानक Screen वर काही words दिसतात ….movie is paused ..

I …

AM…

SORRY …

Next frame …

Sorry..

For …

Late..

Background ला birthday चा scene चालू झालाय …

Happy Birthday Dear !!

……तिच्या वर 1 focus light येतो …. theater मधले lights slowly लागतात …

सगला audience उठून wish करते आहे …..

The audience is actually all her friends secretly entered inside the theater ….

She is surprised…. Searching for him….

He is waiting near the screen….. 1 focus त्याच्यावर ....screen च्या पुढे दोघं … त्यांच्या वर projector चा light पडतोय ….movie started again.

Oye Lucky , Lucky Oye !!

9 अन-ओळख-ई keys चा जुड़गा घेउन class-room उघडायला गेलो. पहिलीच key कुलुपाला बरोबर लागली। २० min ने लक्षात आले अरे "how lucky i was ?"...1/9 probability असताना first attempt मधे key लागली बरोबर। नाहीतर असं होता - नेमकी खुप घाई असते अणि नेहमी च्या keys च्या जुड़गा तुन नेमकी शेवट ची key लागते कुलुपाला अणि आपण नशिबाला दोष देत बसतो instantly - "चायला कसलं bad luck "....
Luck is nothing but just a mere Probability !!

..but i will still call him"kaka"....

after reading/hearing all shit about soul,आत्मा, चैतन्य life long...."शरीर की आत्मा काहीतरी नश्वर असतं ", "शिव/चैतन्य सोडून गेलं की जे उरते ते शव ", "आत्मा just शरीराचे कपडे try करत असतो न this world is like trial room of the big mall or something"n blah blah blah..... काल अचानक या 'filosofis simplified' झाल्या...२ दिवसांपूर्वी सगळे विचारत होते "कुठे जहाँगीर ला नेला का 'काकांना' ?","मग रत्ना वरु ambulance मधुनच नेला का 'काकांना' ?" "कधी देनारेत डिस्चार्ज 'काकांना' ?","कोण असतं मग 'काकां' जवळ रात्रि ? "...etc..and काल लोकं विचारत होते "'बॉडी' कधी नेणार तिकडं ? ","'बॉडी' दिली का hospital ने ?","गाड़ी करुनच नेऊ 'बॉडी' ला ", "'बॉडी' जवळ च रहा म्हणावं त्याला ".....soul, चैतन्य, आत्मा सोडून गेला की "काका " बनतात "बॉडी "..simple but true..sad but true... but i will still call him.....

Updates:

suddenly Bluetooth headfone started working fine... :)

... I'm so happy Cause today I found my friend, they are in my head(fones)....

..stop meeting me Kurt newhere,netime.... :D

C for Clown !!

लिहायलाच हवं यावर .... standing ovation देऊन खाली बसलो आनी असं वाटलं लगेच येवून सांगावं तुला- ब्लॉग ला, लगेच लिहून काढावं ...बरय लोकां च्या पेक्षा मला तुज्याशी बोलायला जास्ती आवडतं यात मी तुज्या शी जास्त attach झालोय or लोकां पासून detach झालोय यापैकी काय meaning होतो ? असो याबद्दल पुन्हा कधीतरी ॥so .. मी कधी नाटकाला standing ovation बघितले नव्हते, एइकले नव्हते , but first time i am doing this.. i am so lucky that i was part of the audience... नाटक हवं तर असं ... ४ +१ clowns ..total मस्ती on stage..each n every act was amazing, interesting, very well executed and what not.. complete use of space...even 1 clown is coming from audience all of a sudden.. नेपथ्थ्य is like we are watching a circus..they are using stage, the wings, even some place of audience space... its interactive..using audience as characters..total fun to watch..very well woven actions-reactions... and dialogs ?? hey, they are using english withouts verbs and one new language -Gibbrish.. its completely "Theater beyond words" .. i don't like charlie like acts...really ..means im not a fan of Charlie..but here they have created magic... no overacting..and events are so fast and apt that when the play ended, clock is showing show time as 1hr and 45 min..its amazingly fascinating 2 hrs of mine..not for a single moment i was looking other than the play..isn't it a sucess of play..and the way they told the story is awsome..what a simple scenes..their interview with a new girl clown..their first performance with that rubberband/elastic rope..reaction on reviews of critics.. their explainations of "wat is clown?".. scene at the time of dinner...their performances first and last..and last scene...everything is still lingering in my mind ...energetic show overall.. nice set, complete mess of things on floor...hey i cant write it all... i wish sometime i wld have some recording of that..or again want to experience the same......i never saw any drama so far on big stage..like balgandharva/YC natyagruha.. all मराठी famous नाटकं are fucking verbose, dialogbaji नुस्ती। i hated नाटकं because of that...now thanks to अमोल पालेकर फॉर showing me "Theater Beyond Words" ...works of रतन थिय्याम , वीनापानी चावला , रजत कपूर ... i owe u all.. starting लाच अशी चव लागली की quality नाटकं बघायला मजा येइल। n now im lovin it ..
P.S. did i mention the play is directed by Rajat Kapoor and out of 5 clowns 2 are Vinay Pathak and Ranvir Shorey ? ...on stage performing live.. :)

शहारे so far...

... and then 3rd bell rang ..lights turned off...complete dark..just some moments before the first light on stage..just before the first sound of the drama..i closed my eyes..its like my first play on stage..its like my 1st screening... and first beat of sound came... सर्रकन अंगावर शहारा आला.
...morning 5:30 वाजता संदीप खरे ऐकला..."...रंग देखिल pakalyanvar भार वाटू लागले ..."..सर्रकन अंगावर शहारा आला.. वेळ - काळ नसतो याला ....
....धूळ झटकली guitar वरची ... जवळ घेतली...गंजू लागलेल्या strings वरून हळूच बोटं फिरली ... shaggy चे तसेच राहिलेले ५-६ जुने स्वर उडून काना शिरले ....सर्रकन अंगावर शहारा आला... स्वरांना जसा स्वताचा आवाज असतो तशी memory पण असते ...
....३ min मधे परवा चिंब भिजलो... गाडीवरून येताना चुकार थेंब jerkin, shirt, pant, underwear ओलांडून एकदम आत पोहोचला ... पहिलाच थेंब, पहिलीच घूसखोरी , अगदी मांडी च्या एकून-एक केसाला ओलांडून जात होता ...सर्रकन अंगावर शहारा आला ... पावसाला करणारा सगला विरोध संपला ...
....दात येत असताना मृणालला कडेवर घेतलं की तिची लाळ लागायची मानेला .... शहारे यायचे ..
....ऑफिस ला निघताना TV बंद करत होतो अचानक "ये जो देश है तेरा " च music लागलं ..शहारा अंगावर घेउनच बाहेर पडलो ...
....daring च होत नाही "legend of BhagatSingh" चे songs ऐकायचा...कधी शहारे पानी बनतात कळत नाही ...specially "सरफरोशी की तमन्ना... "
...and didn't count number of शहारे while watching "intothewild"..i think every time guitar starts..dont know ..wont count ever..
....अगदी जोरात "लागलेली" असती..कधी एकदा रिकामी जागा येते असा झालेलं असतं ..अणि नेमकं लवकर येत नाही... अगदी climax च्या वेळी सापड़ तं काही ...अणि एकदम रिकामा होतो..आता या वेळी या शहा र्याने कशाला यावं ??
....खुप दिवसांनी घेतला एखादा कश cigarette चा ..की मस्त kick बसते ..सर्वात फास्ट शहारा येतो.. ही kick म्हणजेच शहारा असतो बहुतेक. addicted लोकांना येत नाही म्हणे असा पण...
....ABC मधून जात होतो. गणपतीचे मांडव घालत होते। अगदी रोड साइड ला paper var झोपले होते दोघं। एका newspaper मधे मावनारे दोन लहान देह...अगदी रोड ला लागुन.. निवांत ... शहा रया शिवाय काहीच नाही केलं मी ..। तेव्हा कलालं शहारा पण किती waste असतो..

Propose # 17 aka Banana Ride

Place: Goa (miami/florida/sea with blue-est water/??) .
Both r going for 'Banana Ride'..with life jacket,she is lil bit scared..
a boat pulling them with 'banana' deep into the sea..much away from the shore...then the guy on the boat pulls the banana.. both fall into the water... both are under water..she is very scared...trying to hold Him..complete scene under water...He holds her hand ... and puts the 'wedding ring' into her finger... under water...a deep, passionate kiss under water...cut..resting onto the calm sea..holding each other..away from shore..no one present till horizon..calm, still, content............and they enjoyed "BANANA" RIDE ever after :)
-inspired by one scene from movie "jannat" and cam inspired by song "anjana" from Yuva...

For Sale : Cloud# 9

तीसरी मधे असताना गाड़ी घेतलेली "Kinetic Magnum". तीच्या पुढे बसून शाळेत जायचो। येताना मी , दादा, मम्मी कसरत करत यायचो. पाचवी -सहावी -आठवी अशीच या लुना बरोबर गेली. नववी - दहावी ला पण याच लुना वर बसून सकाळी ६ लाच क्लास ला जायचो. Impact Cycle होती माझी मस्त पण तरी वेळ वाचवायला लुना वापरयाचो. नंतर scooty घेतली पण दादा लुनाच वापरत होते. जरा मोठा झालेलो... काही दिवसांनी लुना विकायाचं ठरलं ती विकून दूसरी गाड़ी घ्यायची होती . खुप रडलो होतो मी तेव्हा गाड़ी नाही विकयाची म्हणुन ...शेवटी माझ्या हट्टाला मानून नाही विकली गाड़ी .... खुप possessive झालो होतो तय वेळी त्या लुना बद्दल ...अजुनही दादा ती लुना नगर ला गेल्यावर वापरतात ... चांगलं वाटतं आवडती वस्तू जवळ च राहिल्यावर ------"won here"

Impact cycle होती मस्त माझी ...रोज १५-२० km जावून-येवून करायचो. तिच्यानेच height वाढली माझी. खुप भारी होती ती ... शाळेत खुप मजा केलेली त्या cycle वर .... मधेच ती पण विकली .. वाईट वाटलं बरंच ----- "start of losing"

तो पण गेला ... रडायला पण नाही मिळाला अणि हट्ट करून तर काही फायदाच नव्हता --------"Biggest loss"

एकून -एक वीट माहिती होती घराची आम्हाला ..अगदी पाया खनाल्यावर च्या खड्ड्यात खेललो होतो- खड्डे बुजेपर्यंत , नंतर plinth ला बाद लिने पानी मारले , बाँध कामासाठी साठी आणलेल्या वालुत चोर -पोलिस खेललो - waste गेलेली वालू परत collect करायचो , slab घालताना दिवसभर ती घर-घर एइकत सीमेंट ची पोती मोजत बसलो होतो , slab ला 2-3 pipes जोडून बनावालेल्या पाइप ने पानी मारले , आतून plaster चालू असताना scholarship चा study केला, light नसताना, फरशी नीट नसताना, बाहेरून plaster नसताना राहिलो , तिथेच १०वि बोर्डचं , NTSE, KVPY चं success celebrate केला. नंतर एकून-एक centimeter सजवला घराचा ,थोडं -थोडं करत घर मस्त बनलं होतं अणि अचानक असा काही घडलं की ते घर विकून टाकलं ... 3yrs झाले घराला बघितलं पण नाहीये .... नगर तुटलं , घर तुटलं , पण पुणे जोडलं होतं ... ना मी रडलो ना हट्ट केला ----- " another Big loss"

3-४ yrs एकीवर वेड्या सारखं प्रेम केलं, ती पण गेली , मीच तोडली ...थोड़ा रडलो पण हट्ट नाही केला -------"completely lost"

मोठ्या गोष्टीं बरोबर लहान -लहान गोष्टीं वर पण खुप जिव होता ... bluetooth headfones -parents ला रात्रि त्रास होऊ नये म्हणुन घेतलेले , 500 GB HDD, 180GB + movies, खुप सारे फोटो ...mb-mb-gb-gb करत greatest collection केलेलं ... त्या पण गेल्या अशाच ..... 'Alter Bridge' once said in 'Broken Wings'- "The things we hold are always first to go"

आनी आता cloud # 9 ... बाईक आनी बायको ..दोन्ही बाबतीत मुलं खुप possessive असतात ... कलालाच नाही काल तिचा 5th birthday होता ... खुप साथ दिली हीने ... college life मधली सगळी मजा, सगला माज हिच्याच जोरावर केला ... "purple passion +... 8020 ... Cloud # 9" लई भारी वाटायचं, cloud #9 वर असल्या सारखं !!...त्या वेळी 100 cc पण enough होतं ... रोड cross करायला पण गाड़ी वापरयाचो , college to hostel and hostel to college - हजार चकरा रोज , नगर trip, अलीबाग trip, पुण्यात गल्ल्या हिंडताना हीच होती बरोबर...इतकी similarity की तिचा number and माझ्या mobile चा number पण same होता ...8020 ... नगरचे मित्र म्हणायचे "मग काय bike आहे पुण्यात सो फुल पोरी फिरवत असशील ?" ....कसला काय शेवटी virgin च राहिली ....आता तिला विकायची आहे ... credit-card चं तुम्बलेलं bill भरायचं आहे !!! ------"got used to of losing !"

"For Sale : Cloud #9 !! "

"Different" title सुचत नाहीये या post ला !!!!

Different , A-Typical, uncommon बनण्याच्या नादात खुप एकटा पडलोय .everyone is same here, just another bricks ... they can feel each other, they can understand each other... they have common definitions of love, hate, sex, friendship, freedom....same "famous choices" of books, movies , songs, cloths !! typical, conventional behavior with people... fixed formulas for relations...everyone is wearing same mask... no one can understand what i feel, what i believe, what i see....my choices, emotions, thoughts are different..my beliefs are different..i am feeling like "डॉन" from "यात्रिक " by GA..----
......आता सांग तुझे जहाज खरे की माझा मानुस खरा ??...........म्हणजे तुज्या बाजूने ५० मानसं आहेत म्हणुन तुझे म्हनने बरोबर ??......त्याच्या स्वप्नात अणि माझ्या स्वप्नात काय फरक आहे ??? ......... ----------
when i can understand them ...shouldnt i expect the same ? at least to some extent ? stopped expecting actually but still cant i expect 1% atleast. i am feeling like बिचारा local कवि ...कविता विकत हिंड नारा ... i dont want to sell my emotions who dont care about it ...its better to be alone , ununderstood than to wear the same mask.....
पण ....कदाचित तू असतीस तर मला काही वाईट नसतं वाटलं typical होन्याच ... with u being typical , common पण मंजूर होतं मला ."bareh tu Hazar Dafa !!- For you, a thousand times over"....पण .... :(

And I don´t want the world to see me
´Cause I don´t think that they´d understand
When everything´s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am ............IRIS by Goo Goo Dolls.

some years back watched the movie called "Missed call" ...at that time felt like stupid movie.. this time am getting the feel of that movie....only two possible ways either i am completely psycho or extraordinary !!!

15 KMPH

We have already missed the deadline. Its been a week gone after the release of "Golmaal Returns".. and we missed to watch it..so in order to complete the task, though lately, we rushed to the theater to watch the movie..its around 3 PM and the mobile rang...call from CFTI "tommorow’s class is cancelled"... the thing came into my mind just within 2.1 sec was...LETS GO TO SANDHAN..i didnt know how ? i didnt know wat time i wld reach thr ?..i just wanted to go at that very momemt..I wanted to live on that Impulse...always wanted to live on "impulse" rather than just on "pulse"....

Place : Shastri road.

3:10 : rejected the thought of going by bus.

3:15 : called sankya for bike...waste

3:17: asked nachiket for bike...waste

then after 3 min of brainstorming abt calling gunavant ..we finally decided to call him up..called him ..yup !! he said OKEY..wat a help..the good thing is even nikhil didnt hesitate to come..he is not a trekker, he is not impulsive like me, he didnt want to be a rider for such a long journey..still he said yes...Thanks Nikhalya !! went to his home..

Place : Sahakar Nagar Time around 3:45

In 10 mins he is back with his stuff..jerkin and some cloths..then back to my home..

Place : Kothrud..Time around 4:10..

lied ..for parents we r going to torana for trek..they wld allow me in necase..but dont want to give them tension ..so lied..

packed a small bag..took helmet..took handicam..but no use..very less battery...

Place : Sangavi Time : around 4:30

got the bike..pulsar 180... petrol n atm..around 4:45

then i started thinking abt “things to carry” :D .. got One LIGHTS packet and a LIGHTER..in case we need to make some fire at night ..thats all..we just had a misal in the afternoon..

ther we go..started...

Place : Nashik fata Time : 5 PM..

then i started thinking abt the reasons ..why did i take this decision ? ..

riding n thinking are paralally running processes for me….. always..

Reasons :

1. Live on impulse..impulse told me "go-be there"

2. Sandhan - most peaceful place on earth ... लई शांत जागा आहे .. एकदम Peace

3. some ppl think that - me always काही LAME, न पट नारी reasons देऊन trek ला येत नाही ...i wanted to prove them wrong...i always want to come..but trek is not everything for me..its just a small part of my interests..

4. i wanted to c the expressions on the faces..when they c me at sandhan !! i want to catch that “moment of surprize” !!

5. "Be Unpredictable" 16 character (including space) गुरुमंत्र !!

6. There is lil bit of Alex in every one of us :) i have some more similarity with him..so wanted to be “rubber-tramp” ..those who dont know Alex..can skip this..those who watched "Into the wild" but still didnt remember Alex..skip the whole post..u dont deserve this.

7. to check my limits ...450 Km drive...driving for 100% of the time+ small trek ... m stretching my body to limits.. and no pain on monde..its like nothing has happned..Good sign :)

8. We dont want to spend another boring weekend...waiting for the time to pass nehow... choosing movie to watch depending upon the duration of movie..dont wanna do that ..

9. After doing so many decisions against my will, acting practically..this time wanted to listen to heart…

I think even u didn’t have so many reasons to go to sandhan !! so my decision is justified..

Road was nice, bike was amazing, atmos was gorgeous, n the company was equally mental and stupid like me...so jorney was लई भारी...सगला road पाठ होता... reached संगमनेर... had some drink ..1 by 2 beer pint..consecutive 5th weekend..have to control this.. but felt relaxed a bit..

Nagar,Its like my माहेर, Our माहेर ..reached Akole around 9:15.. we have decided to ride further till sandhan in the night only. but then some pan-tapari wala scared us.. decided to stay thr in akola.. booked a lodge..small drink and chiken dry ..खुप कमी घेतली but good thing is didnt smoke..not a single कश् (kashque)! Good Sign :) .. still have control..i can control..this is also some type of checking my control J.. "Home minister" ची वाट पाहत झोपून गेलो ..but every hour ला उठत होतो .. गाड़ी जागेवर आहे का नाही बघन्य साठी i still dont have belief in people..City मधली सवय जात नाही ...woke up early in the morning around 5:30..

6:10 ready for tea..6:10 वाजता त्या दुकानातली बाई sewing machine वर blouse शिवत होती .. :) deadline इथे पण असते ..life ejj hard !..प्रचंड थंडी होती ..हात अगदी अखडून गेलेले पण still stretched...प्रचंड PJ चालू होते ..माहेराची songs म्हणत होतो ..like "माझ्या गोव्याच्या भूमित ..." etc.. marathi serial वर गप्पा मारत होतो ॥and what not॥reading each n every board…फुल संसारी गप्पा चालू होत्या ...We both r the most संसारी ppl on earth....n we hav accepted that...have to accept that..

Its like every turn is familier to me..i could recall every turn, every tree. so memory collect करत वेळ कसा गेला समजलं नाही ..so many memories..hey this is the randha fall ! first time randha उतरताना कशी फाटली होती ! feeling of being just below randha fall ,thanks to vickya that time! hey dont miss this turn or u will reach bhandardara gaon not shendi...hey this is the turn for ratangad, this is chauki whr we lied for the number of ppl, 25 rs toll is still pending with us..that amazing group foto while walking on the ratangad road..this is the school whr we stayed at night..n this is the tree whr we shit ..the village rooftops i always like, garden near to the umbrell fall, this is the farm where we danced, cant write all memories.. been here for 4-5 times..its truely MAHER for me.. was telling this to nikhil..he staretd liking this all...

And then we turned for ghatghar !! just remembered॥my last visit to sandhan।. i was all alone for that trek॥still i have done that॥same jerkin with hood on..i was sitting besides driver as i knew no-one..and then that amzing platue ..backwaters of dam.. first time i was seeing the Blue water of lake..just like the water at palolum beach..so Blue like i have used filter for camera..and faint blue sky reflecting in water..amazing combination..Blue water, faint blue skies, yellow ground...some green lupms scattred..left side "karavatine koralya sarakhe" kalasubai,alang , kulang....

when i saw the song for the first time in theatre at that very moment i came to know the location..its the way to sandhan...and then that Samrad colony...been here for only 1 time before..still can remember this..then came the samrad village...asked for the tavera...found the house..they told me all visitors are having fun in the waters..ran ther..could hear ur voices..and saw u all having fun in the waters..somewhat dissappointed as i could not c your faces even with maximum zoom...just jumped into it...its 1346 times much relaxing than pint of beer... amazing...एक सनक गेली अंगातून जसा पानी touch केला तशी ..एकदम refresh झालो .. n then had fun in the water..after some chats n snaps n introductory sessions..had breakfast.. not in mood to crack jokes..just want to go to sandhan !!tired of being funny all the time.

And then time came...Sandhan !! unwordly exp...cool, peace ,content काय असते तर हेच ...then those familier rocks wr inviting me... पाण्याचा मस्त आवाज येत होता ...सगला शांत ...once i crossed this valley all alone..n this time am not but still can feel the same.. crossed the water with jeans covering my head, shoes around my neck, camera in my hand..chillest water...had some gr8 snaps ....thanks manasi for camera. i could not believe that i have rappled down from here... so huge, so amazing, so peaceful.. while returning back shared some ideas of making movie here...some shots at least ..if not a good movie then at least some porn..wildest fantasies..वेळ - काळ काही कळत नाही यांना …wanted to have a nap thr...on those cold rocks...listening to the music of water..another nice place to sleep..came back had a wonderful lunch.. i was in different mood..

visited Ratangad..that hanuman mandir has changed a lot..once we lived thr..again memories..then some bad road.. each meter ला tyre puncture होऊ नये अशी pray करत होतो .

येतानाची journey खुप machanical होती ..after 3-4 hrs..i stated hating country-side roads..अरे किती turns ? काही हिशेब ? आलं मनात की turn करा रस्ता. first time i hated the vilage roads. कळत नाही असं का झालं ..कदाचित अति झालं म्हणुन l..sorry village roads !! then some bore journey but a gr8 sunset ...

near rajguru nagar ..i could not sense nething..means hand, legs, bums che sensationsch गायब झालं होतं ...m just driving like machine..reached home..had dinner..checked mails :D... n went to sleep... खुप दमलो होतो ..पण body ने खुप साथ दिली ..i can stretch much more than this..not just another weekend….450 km in 30 hrs....15KMPH..not a bad avarage...

Thought # 123

Those who don't understand your silence will never understand your words !!
Those who don't understand the meaning of your 'Blank' gtalk status will never understand status of your mind !!

Mood Today !

Kal Ho Na ho : title song and heartbeat
Raincoat : Piya tohe kaisa abhiman...both versions..mathura nagarpati..
Omkara : Jag ja re
Zakhma : Gali me aaj chand nikala
Into the wild : Long Nights
Trek , riding, fotos , loneliness, memory....

Once Sant Tukaram asked me "What is in name ?"....

Sir asked us for the name of that short film ...and he told him suddenly "atmavishwas" (confidence) ...अशी एक सनक गेली डोक्यात .... चायला स्वताला director म्हानावता ॥ asst। director तरी लायकी आहे का ? इतके obvious and common title असता का राव? ते "माहेराचा कुंकू " , "खेळ नशिबाचा ", "झुंज अन्यायाशी " , "ओरखडा -The Scratch", "Oxygen- जिव गुदमरतोय" type झालं ! typical, pathetic, cheap titles... title असं असावं की समजला नाही पाहिजे viewer की काय आहे भो film मधे ! like 'Raincoat' .. to name a film is like to name a moviee :D :D :D.. JK .. really name is very imp thing .... Once Sant Tukaram asked me "What is in name ?" .......

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2000 miles is very far through the snow

I think of you wherever you go

--- while reading lyrics of this song...i remembered her in those frozen and silent nights ...and AdSense remembered an advertize "Push snow away without scratching paint"

कोणाला काय आणि कोणाला काय !!!!!

1.36

       Once upon a time there was film, a short film.. incomplete one..i decided the name of the movie as its duration..means if its duration is 2:01 min then its name wld be 2:01.. :) ..dont let reader/viewer presume what they gonna read/watch.. first movie is special indeed..though its incomplete..far away from completion...i liked the title and idea behind it very much....i thought its genuin idea..

       "1.36" is the song by coldplay (yes coldplay again..) same thought behind the name of song..The song used to be 1 minute and 36 seconds long so they named it after that. But then they changed the song a bit and it got longer but they decided to keep the name of the song because it sounded cool ..

some words - 

........ How soon is now? yeah

How long is never? .............

so the thing is....nothing .... just a co-incidence :)

Thought # 12/7

Every love-story is different in its own way but all tragedies are THE same !

Thought # 34

It is my favorite pastime to find logic behind complete illogically happening weird things......

I wanna be bigger, stronger, drive a faster car,

same आहे हे पण। मला पण pencil ला एकदम sharp टोक करता येत नाही ,अगदी फुगलेला गाल फुटावा इतकं sharp. दरवेळी जास्ती sharp व जास्ती मोठा करायच्या नादात टोक तुटून जातं , तिचं पण असाच होतं, pencil च्या cover चा कचरा साचतो पण टोक काही मनासारखा होत नाही तिच्या .... दरवेळी अजुन मोठं , अजुन मोठं करण्याच्या नादात ते तुटत जातं ॥
Life च्या बाबतीत पण असाच असतं नाही का ? .....

i wanna be bigger, stronger, drive a faster car,

To take me anywhere in seconds,

To take me anywhere I wanna go,

And drive around a faster car,

I will settle for nothing less,

Me again..

I thought i wont come here ever... after hating my words so much. i left this all crap..but when u can't drink, cant smoke, cant dope, cant cry, cant speak up...then there is only one way left ..write..

so 'here i am..this is me'..me again.. 

but address might change .. 

अवचट !

मगाशी अनिल अवचट भेटला । एकेरी हाक मारली कारन वयाचा difference जाणवला च नाही । असाच बोलत बसला बराच वेळ एकादच्या तिकडच्या गप्पा । खुप चांगलं वाटलं भेटून। हलकं हलकं , सैल वाटलं। काही selected असावंनेहमी बरोबर म्हणुन म्हटला करावं upload ..........
मुंगी चे मूल :
अलगद पडले फुल भुईवर
मुंगी चे मूल उठले दचकून
मुंगी फुलाशी भांडू लागे
उठल्या पोर झोपाऊ कसे ?

किती छान धुकं पडलयं !
किती छान धुकं पडलयं
ऐ ,धुक्याला पडलं का म्हणतोस ?
म्हणजे काय ते पडतं म्हणुन
अरे ते पडत नसतं
ते पसरता हळूच
अणि पानावर उतरता
हलक्या हाताने स्रुश्तिला आंघोळ ही घालतो
पण तरी एकून काय ... ते पडतं च ....
तसा नसतं ...माझ्या धुक्याला
असं बोलायच पण नसतं , कलाला ?

अजुन खुप आहेत राव पण हे मराठीत type करना खुप हार्ड जाते ....
खुप लवकर या white beard वाल्या मनासशी patalay.... भीती अशी आहे की खुप कमी वयात हे feel होनाचांगला नाहीये !!!!

Propose # 2 & # 3

#2 : In Gents Loo :) . She is proposing him in gents toilet/loo ..... he is too embarrassed other guys having weird look trying to zip their pants in hurry. she is calm n confident... (inspired by jaane tu ya jane na :))
#3 : "tum ho to" - Rock On- "jindagieeeiieeeii" very difficult to sing...he is trying it for 100 times..very bad voice...likr palya singing "Diwanaa" donno abt sur/taal anything .. trying, trying at different locations, times....finally tying a lot..he sings all of a sudden for her in public.. donno the location... then singing the song...in this "jindagi" alap..he is in middle...at top of his voice..breathless at that point..and she joins...giving him time to take a breath and again continue his alap... :)

Apache membership needed !

i know that apache-वाले पाल्या नसेल तर भाव पण देत नाहीत ...पाल्या होता , regular customer, भरपूर bill अणि बरोबर आम्ही - म्हणुन जरा भाव होता ...पण आता नाहीये .... same झालं आज ...चेत्या कड़े गेलो होतो shaggy चे parcel घ्यायला ...flat वर चेतन , रोहन अणि रणजीत होता ... चेत्या काही लई गांड - दोस्त etc नही so सुट्टी नही का ? company कशी चालू आहे ? असे 3 question-answers झाले , रोहन्या शी पण माझा बोलण नाहीये जास्ती , accident बद्दल 2 questions only , रणजीतला - खेलायला गेलेला का ? बास .... रोहन्या गेला आत parcel आणायला ...3 min full शांतता ... असं वाटला कोणीतरी cable चा bill मागायला आलायं /दब्बेवाला डब्बे घ्यायला आलायं अणि वाट बघतोय बाहेर . रणजीत पण काही बोलला नाही ... मी खुप अवघडून गेलो .... मग समजला apache चा rule इथे पण लागतो . पाल्या होता म्हणुन ते होते .direct मी tyancha frnd navhato ... जरा उशिरा समजलं पण बरं झालं समजलं. Shaggy होता palya होता म्हणुन D9 होतं ... suya पण होता चांगला ... मिथुन कधी माणसात नव्हता ... some lines r deleted :)

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Its really amazing to see how we grow up, from a little innocent kid to a full grown Man.
At Age 5+ : She was playing a game on net. Some race game with cartoon characters, a three player game. She first chose 'Miss Kitty' as herself, her favorite character. She tried but being new to game and PC, she lost, she came third. 'Bad Monkey' came first and another toon came second. She came third. she felt so bad bcoz 'Miss Kitty' lost the game. But she got an idea. Second time she chose 'Bad Monkey ' as herself and played. Intentionally playing very slow 'Bad Monkey' Lost .She lost but 'Miss Kitty' won the game. She was very happy bcoz 'Miss Kitty' won , though she lost the game.

At Age 10+ : आम्ही गल्लीत 3 पोरं होतो . Friends पण म्हणता येईल. एकदा दहिहंदी करायचं ठरलं . So आम्ही 1 दोरी घेतली अणि stool वर चढून around 7-8 फूट्वर दहिहंदी बांधली . सोपी होती फोडायला जास्ती उंच नव्हती . Just दोन पोरं खाली अणि 3rd ला त्यांच्या खांद्यावर चढून फोड़ता आली असती But the question was who will be the winner? who will be the Krushna ? कोण बनेल कृष्ण अणि हंडी फोडणार Every one wanted to be the winner... so number काढले as batting order in cricket . i came last. So मला वाईट वाटला की जर आधीच कोणी हंडी फोडली तर मला नाही मिळणार फोडायला. but मी जरा मोठा होतो त्यावेळी so मी 1 idea केली . जो पहीला वर चढला त्याला उगाच काहीतरी कारण काढून पाडले , first पोराचा chance गेला ...so दूसरा चढला तो पण खाली पडला ...thanks to my trick॥yup hurray..now my chance and no one knew the trick..and i became the Krushna, the winner... i was very happy ..

At Age 24+: Now here i am..comparing the two scenes.. who is correct ? who is more human ? who is qualified to live in this rat race ? Who is fittest to live... but this time i dont want to be the winner ..

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No one to read, no one to comment, no one interested, no one visiting the blog. Its me who is increasing the profile visit count everyday. every day peeking here to see some comments or number of visits.. Should i make it public ? no way!! its for me only (...is it really ?) but every artiste needs feedback....or am i with wrong ppl around ? its possible.."Being typical,common has its own pains, but being Different costs too"

HAPPRY FRIENDSHIP DAY, ALEX

ALEX ,

SHALL I CALL U ALEXANDER SUPERTRAMP OR CRISTOPHER MCCANDLESS ? IT IS SAID IN 'DR. ZIVAGO' “…TO CALL EACH THING BY ITS RIGHT NAME.” BUT DOES IT MATTER ? FOR ME U ARE “ALEX WITH THE HAT ON” OR “ALEX FROM WEST VIRGINIA” OR AS I JUST SAID 'MY FRIEND ALEX'. HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY, ALEX !! U WONT ASK ME OR U KNOW WHY I CALLED U MY FRIEND. JUST 2-3 DAYS BEFORE FRIENDSHIP DAY, I SAW U. U HAUNTED ME LIKE ANYTHING. ITS BEEN 10 DAYS, U R STILL HAUNTING ME. SO THE THING HAPPENED ON THAT FRIENDSHIP DAY. WAS WATCHING U, I THINK FOR THE THIRD TIME. N I REALIZE WE HAVE SO MANY THINGS IN COMMON. I DON’T THINK ‘BEING COMMON’ IS A KEY TO FRIENDSHIP. BUT STILL THAT DAY U SEEMED LIKE AN OLD FRIEND TO ME.

THIS LETTER IN UPPERCASE/CAPITAL IS JUST TO REMIND U, JUST LIKE U USED TO WRITE IN UR DIARY. DID U OBSERVE ONE THING ? I AM NOT A LEFTY PERSON, BUT I ALWAYS LIKED THOSE PPL. MY BLOG IS LEFT ALIGNED. IT IS LIKE THIS LONG BEFORE I MET U. JUST LIKE U, DIFFERENT ! YOU REMEMBER DAY NUMBER 23 IN MAGIC BUS ? U JUST WROTE A DASH (--)AGAINST IT IN YOUR DIARY. SAME THING HAPPENED WITH ME. ONCE I HAVE JUST LOGGED A DOT(.) IN MY DIARY. NOTHING TO SAY, TO WRITE, TO FEEL, A COMPLETE BLANKNESS.

DO U REMEMBER ON UR GRADUATION DAY PARTY, U SCREAMED “I DON’T NEED A NEW CAR” “I DON’T WANT A NEW CAR” “I DON’T WANT ANYTHING, THESE THINGS, THINGS, THINGS” THE SAME THING HAPPENED WITH ME. ONCE, FOR SOME MULTILEVEL MARKETING GUY ASK ME ABOUT MY DREAMS, LIKE CAR, FARMHOUSE, MONEY .. I WENT NUMB..MEANS I WAS SO DUMB, I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT. I BECAME SO MUCH DETACHED FROM THESE THINGS SOMETIMES. MANY A TIMES ALL THOSE PHYSICAL THINGS DON’T MAKE ME HAPPY. (YES I AGREE SOME EXCEPTIONS -CLOTHES AND MOVIES). BUT I DON’T WANT TO LIVE FOR MAKING MORE N MORE MONEY, THEN HEAVY PACKAGE, GOOD CAR , BRAND NEW FLAT, AND THEN SOME COOL SO-CALLED SOFASTICATED LIFESTYLE…ALL THESE THINGS, THINGS, THINGS..AND THE LIST GOES ON. I DON’T WANNA RUN BEHIND THESE NEVER ENDING LIST OF THINGS. I KNOW NOW NEITHER A GOOD PACKAGE NOR GOOD FLAT COULD MAKE U HAPPY, CONTAINT. I TOTALLY AGREE WITH U “MONEY MAKES PEPPLE CAUTIOUS .. I DON’T KNOW IF U WNT TO DEPEND ON MUCH MORE THAN THAT” WELL SAID ALEX OR “MY DAYS ARE WERE MORE EXCITING WHEN I WAS PENNILESS” ITS TRUE, I HATE CARRYNG MONEY ALL THE TIME . THERE IS SOMETHING OTHER THAN THIS I WANT. I THINK I KNOW WHAT ‘U’ WANTED, BUT DON’T KNOW ABT MINE. SOMETIMES I SEE U CLIMBING ON THE HILL NEAR SALTON CITY. ME ASKING THE QUESTION “WHAT THE HELL YOU RUNNING FROM?” AND YOU YELLING AT ME“I COULD ASK YOU THE SAME QUESTION.EXCEPT I ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER.” HOPE U COULD GIVE ME THE ANSWER !!.

DID I TELL YOU @ MY FAST LAST YEAR? USUALLY I DON’T EAT MUCH. I DON’T BELIEVE IN EATING MORE THAN U NEED AND WANT MY NEEDS TO BE AS LESS AS POSSIBLE. SO BEING GR8 CHICKEN ‘ADDICT’ I DECIDED TO OBSERVE COMPLETE FAST FOR 9-10 DAYS. NOTHING RITUAL, NOTHING LIKE ‘NAWAS’. SAME FEELING LIKE URS “THE CLIMATIC BATTLE TO KILL THE FALSE BEING WITHIN AND VICTORIOUSLY CONCLUDE THE SPIRITUAL REVOLUTION…” EVEN WHEN I EXHAUSTED WHILE TREKKING I FEEL THE SAME… “TO WIN THE CLIMATIC BATTLE TO DEFEAT THE SOFASTICATED, FAT, LAZY ME WITHIN.ME, POISENED BY THE CIVILIZATION”.

AND THEN COMES LOVE. I DON’T KNOW WAT WLD I REACT WHEN TRACY ASKED TO DO “SOME THING” TOGHTHER. THEN I RELIZE THE SAME THING. THERE ARE MANY THINGS WHICH ARE FAR MORE IMPORTANT,BEAUTIFUL,EXCITING THAN HAVING A SEX. I ALWAYS WANTED TO KNOW WHAT ARE THOSE THINGS. MEANS I ALWAYS WANTED TO HAVE ONE OR TWO LIKE THIS BUT WHEN I SAW U REJECTING THE CHANCE AND SINGING A LOVELY SONG WITH HER. I FOUND MYSELF IN U. HEY ! THIS IS ME, WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE. SO PURE , SO TRUE. THANKS FOR THAT ALEX. WHEN RAINEY ASKED U “YOU PLANNING ON SEEING YOU CHILDREN” U REPLIED “I’VE GOT ONLY ONE PLAN”…AND ME SAYING “THAT’S A HELL OF AN INSIGHT .JESUS. U ARE NOT JESUS , ARE YOU ALEX ?” MY ANSWER COULD BE ‘OSCARS’ RATHER THAN ‘ALASKA’.

BUT U KNOW WHAT IS THE MOST SIMILAR THING BETWEEN U N ME ? “SOCIETY ..SOCIETY - THE CRAZY BREED. GETTING OUT OF THIS SICK SOCIETY. I TOO DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE, WHY EVERY FUCKING PERSON IS SO BAD TO EACH OTHER SO FUCKING OFTEN. IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE TO ME . JUDGEMENT , CONTROL ALL THAT, THE WHOLE SPECTRUM…YOU KNOW PARENT, HYPOCRITES, POLITIOCIANS, PRICKS, MANAGERS, CEOS, CELEBRATIES, NEWSWALAS, PEOPLE AROUND US.” IT ACTUALLY CUT ME APART FROM THEM. BUT STILL - GOT MY INDIGNATION BUT I'M PURE IN ALL MY THOUGHTS(GUARANTEED). APART FROM ALL THESE U JUST DON’T HATE PEOPLE. THE RELATIONSHIPS WITH RAINEY N JANE, WITH TRACY , WITH WAYNE , WITH RON. THEY ALL ARE JUST SO PURE THAT I WAS ALWAYS SEARCHING FOR THEM IN PEOPLE AROUND ME. SOMEWHERE IN MY FRIENDS , IN MY COUSINES OR JUST SOME HAIRDRESSER OR EVEN IN A VILLAGER. I HOPE I WILL FIND SIMILAR PEOPLE IN MY WAY. U MEASURE URSELF AND PEOPLE AROUND YOU BY A FIERCELY RIGOROUS MORAL CODE. SO DO I. THAT’S WHY PPL FIND DIFFICULT TO IMPRESS ME.

TO KNOW U MORE I STARTED READING TOLSTOY, BUT COULDN’T PURSUE IT LONGER. BUT STILL THE PART I KNOW THEM, I TOTALLY AGREE WITH THEM AND WITH U ALEX. “I HAVE LIVED THROUGH MUCH AND NOW I THINK I HAVE FOUND WHAT IS NEEDED FOR HAPPINESS.A QUITE SECLUDED LIFE IN THE COUNTRY WITH THE POSSIBILITY OF BEING USEFUL TO PEOPLE TO WHOM IT IS EASY TO DO GOOD AND WHO ARE NOT ACCUSTOMED TO HAVE IT DONE TO THEM AND WORK WHICH ONE HOPES MAY BE OF SOME USE THEN REST , NATURE, BOOKS, MUSIC, LOVE FOR ONE’S NEIGHBOUR. SUCH IS MY IDEA OF HAPPINESS AND THEN ON TOP OF THAT, YOU FOR A MATE AND CHILDREN PERHAPS. WHAT MORE CAN THE HEART OF THE MAN DESIRE ?” FAMILY HAPPINESS –BY TOLSTOY. I THINK THIS IS THE END, THE REASON, THE AIM OF YOUR LIFE… OUR LIFE. AND THEN U LEFT ALASKA. FOR ME THIS IS THE END OF YOUR STORY ALEX. I HOPE THIS SHOULD BE END OF MINE TOO, A SECLUDED LIFE. THAT’S WHY I CALLED U ‘FRIEND’, ALEX. ONCE AGAIN HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY !

-ME

(P.S. : I KNOW ‘U’ AS ‘ALEX/CHRIS’ IS JUST A CHARACTER POTRAYED BY DIRECTOR N WRITER SEAN PENN AND JON KRAKAUER. THIS COULD BE YOU OR NOT. BUT DOES IT MATTER ? DID U RELIZE THE GREATEST SIMILARITY ? “HE RISKED WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN A RELENTLESSLY LONELY PATH BUT FOUND COMPANY IN THE CHARACTERS OF THE ‘BOOKS’ HE LOVED……… HE COULD SUMMON THEIR WORDS TO SUIT ANY OCCASION AND HE OFTEN WOULD” IN MY CASE ITS ‘MOVIES’ RATHER THAN ‘BOOKS’. AND THIS TIME ITS U, ALEX AS A CHARACTER. ISN’T IT SIMILAR MY FRIEND ? )

There should be...

manasa bhandyala havit, war vyayala hava, natural calamity yayala havyat. tarach manasa samajatat. ekmekanvar var keleli manasa, ekmekanchye kapade fadanari, burakhe fadanari , nagadi manasa disayala havit. tarach manus kalato. nahitar happy vatavaranat burakhyachya aad laplela chehara kasa kalnar. konitari burakha fadayala hava bhandanane, bombspotane or war ne. tarach apan manasa nagadi hou, jase apan ahot tase disu! na sakharet gholanari, na mithit ghenari....sagali nadagi manasa jashi hoti tashi, jashi ahet tashi !!!!

This Love has got no ceiling !!!

Then I asked her “when I watched “Notebook” I remembered V, is this love?” she kept mum. Then sometime later I asked her “I feel good when V is around, is this love?” she kept mum. “I don’t LIKE any girl other than V, is this love?” She still kept mum. And now here I am, after 4-5 years of friendship. I care for her. I care for her relationship with some other guy. I am trying to save that. I am confident about her career, worried about her PG. I am watching her walking, holding his hands on their so-called-anniversary. I am watching her pretending like aishwarya from raincoat, trying to save block holes of their relations. I am realizing the respect for my emotions going down, down on low priority. I don’t remember what dress she wore, don’t remember her body, I didn’t feel anything :D , never had her in my wildest fantasies. I am seeing myself listening to their stories ,pretending to be interested and holding myself. Joking and creating irrelevant topics to make her speak. I am seeing myself wishing her on her birthday and their so-called-anniversary though she forgot mine. No ego, no masks, nothing!! Now I want to ask her “Is this Love?” For the first time I am confident. I know IT IS. I LOVE her. But don’t know whether she will keep mum as usual or …..

----trying to find the answer of the question 'NOT telling her the truth' i came across this..

This Love is beyond the study of theology,
that old trickery and hypocrisy.
If you want to improve your mind that way,

sleep on.

I've given up on my brain.
I've torn the cloth to shreds
and thrown it away.

If you're not completely naked,
wrap your beautiful robe of words
around you,

and sleep.

- rumi

There is GOD somewhere and There is EVIL too somewhere in ME !

deleted this post.... lost here... coward me won.. but will write it sometime.. too complicated

Life is Technicolor !

Then i had a thought why do i watch so many movies..?? now a days almost every alernate day..why ?? why do i take a cd per day trying to finish that cd-store-waal's catlogs one bye one...?why do i awake till 1-2 or even 3AM at night.making my whole day sleepy..? why do i lock myself in my room and start my PC just 23 mins after i come home ..Hiding from my friends..not hanging around palya's room ..not going for unnessesory dinners with anyone available.not even watching IPL..what made me like this..i dont know exactly.. but one thing i surely no like hell...in the theatre when the very first sound of movie i heard ..angavar kate yetat..sagala ang shaharata..darveli॥even i like to saw the very first scene..when "Dremaworks" चा boy त्याच्या fishing rod पाण्यात टाकतो or warner brothers chi yellow vasti or new Line cinema chya Shidya...i like to c them all..the very first scene to credits..all cast-supporting cast..even Till "Dolby Digital-DTS sound"..i like to watch evry scene..is thr anything "watching between the scenes ?" i feel everything..i feel evry breath of each character..i dont know..wat it makes ..but i like to live like characters in reel life ..i am searching them too in real life.. afterall movies are inspired from life ..i still think life is far more better movie than nething .quite lenghty and somewat boring but if u c it with fast forward it actually IS...ok.so the question is why?? why Do i watch so many movies..Do u know when no one speak with u with all ther heart..when no one listen to u with ease..the only sahara is movie..i feel thr emotions and sometimes they do feel mine..many of them are rainbow for me like Irfan khan in Rog..they taught me how to live, how to dream..it made me watsofar im rt now.good/bad/black-n-white/technicolor ..they made me....

Wanted Alive..

आठवत पण नाहीये कधी पाउस पडला होता शेवटचा ..आनी आता कधी परत पहायला मिळेल की नाही याची पण guaranty नाहीये . ते काहीतरी artificial पाउस पाडणार आहेत म्हणे ..Iodine फवार्तात ढगा वर ..आता iodine युक्ता पावसात भिजल्यावर मुलं पण जास्ती Intelligent होतील असा काहीतरी research/survey नीघेल iodine युक्ता नमक सारखा ! :) ...so the thing is आपन तरी बघितला आहे पाउस खुप , पण मृणाल ..तीला तर पावसात भिजाने आठवत पण नसेल ..कदाचित athavanar पण नाही कधी ..खुप वाईट वाटलं ... काय करता येइल म्हणून विचार करत होतो तर 1 add दिसली ..पाउस च विकत घेउन देऊ तीला .. खेळ म्हणावं पाहिजे तिताके पावसात ..भीज मनसोक्त ..गेलो एका mall मधे ..मस्त ambience मधे फिरताना विचारले salesman ला पावसाचे counter कुठे आहे ? तो म्हणाला "-2 floor वर sir".. पाउस घ्याला कधी बसेमेंट ला गेलो नव्हतो .. गेलो तिकडे एका कोपर्यात होती बरीच counters पावसाची ..काही branded, काही discount वाली ..sagala milata यार mall मधे .. Alladin चा दीवाच आहे mall म्हणजे .. फक्त खीसा जरा रिकामा करावा लागतो .. तर मी विचारले salesman ला
"जरा पाउस हवा होता "...तो -"अहो जरा काय भरपूर मिळेल , exclusive varieties आहेत आम्च्याकादा पावसाच्या ..इतर कुठेही इतक्या मिळणार नाहीत " "so कसा हवाय पाउस ? नुसता भुर्भुरानारा , की एकदम जोरात, moist mumbai सारखा , की नागडा उन् and पाउस एकदम , की मुताल्यासरखा slow ,boring , गारांचा पण आलय recently, even imported पण मिळेल , जापान सारखा सतत पडणारअ kantala येई पर्यंत , की भरपूर वार्याबरोबर एकदम micro droplets वाला हवाय ..याला खुप demand आहे सध्या ." "ummmm .." मला कलेना ..खर्च इतक्या variety असतात पावसाच्या, आपण वेड्यासारखे नुसते भिजलो , कधी classify नाही केला त्याला .. "जास्ती जोरात नकोय , medium वाला दाखवा ..भिजता पण येइल and आजारी पण नाही पडणार असा .." (middle class mentality सगल medium हव अगदी M च्या pant पासून medium price च्या tickets पर्यंत ) "अहो आजारी पडण्याचा सवालाच नाहीये , हा घ्या imported यात पाउस triple-filtered होऊं येतो ani temp पण adjustable आहे , आनी जोरात -हलू साठी तर knob आहेत प्रत्येकालाच " "ठीके ...ani हो गारांचा काय आहे ? खर्च गारा पडतात का ? आनी लागत नाही ना जास्ती जोरात ?" (पठिवाराचे गारांचा मार आठवला ..गारा collect करायला खाली वाकला की पाठीत जोरात बसायच्या ..अगदी जीव कलावालायाचा .) "yes , original गारा , even यात flavor पण आहेत, strawberry, choco, vanilla etc flavor आहेत.so गारा वेचायाचा पण आनंद आनी ice cream पण . ज़रा महाग आहे पण worth आहे ..आवडेल मुलांना खुप .." "hmmmm....भारी idea आहे ,,china-made का ?" "नाही ..china made चे आले होते पण FDA approved नाहीयेत गारा त्यांच्या so market मधे खपले नाही .." "अरे वास वाला पाउस आहे कार ??े ..मातीचा वास येइल जो पडल्यावर .." "ummm... मातीचा नाहीये exactly पण बाकी वास आहेत ,room freshener म्हणुन पण वापरता येइल हा ..बरेच इतर वास पण आहेत यात ..china-made आहे ..cheap पण मिळेल ..पण यात मातीचा वास नाहीये .. अपल्यासरखा ..तो वास only original पावसालाच येतो !!" "खरय..हे काय खोटे खोटे पाउस ..मनाचा समाधान नुसता ." so 1 medium range म्हाधाला , medium functionality वाला पाउस घेतला ....मला पण उत्सुकता होती कसा असेल हा Branded-man made पाउस ...घरी आलो मृणाल ला म्हणालो ओळख बार तुज्यासाठी काय आणले ?? "barbie, power-ranger चा dress, ben10 चे wrist watch, ..." option कधी पावसावर आलाच नाही ...मीच शेवटी उघडून दाखवला तीला .. सगल सांगितला असा असतो पाउस , असा वास येतो , आम्ही असे करायचो -तसे करायचो , थोड़ा भीजलो ..तीला पण भिजवला .. सगल झाल्यावर ती मला म्हणाली "पण आपण direct water park लाच गेलो असतो तर ??" मी speechless.. पाउस मनातून पण हरवत चाललाय.

World Is Round- Proof # 2

Some years ago i heard abt the movie "La Stanza del figlio(The Son's Room). I saw it today. the song which left me in tear was "By This River". It is by Brian Eno. Brian Eno was the one who produced Coldplay's 4th record "Viva la Vida or Death and All His Friends" :D . "ColdPlay" again !!!
Dear Copernicus, u r right ! World Is round - Proof #2

Some Last Breaths @ patni (Home Edition)

This is my Last Working Day at Patni mail.....

hi,

hey me again this one is fully personalized...what did u think 'that' small mail is enough? no ways guys....etaka bolanara me asa thodkyat nahi janar..and that was too formal mail .that was "Professional Edition"..this one is casual .. only for some closer,chosen ones..thats why this "Home Edition" is . so from whr should i start...???

i dont know.. ok...as aparna said in her LWD mail every one hav to come across a "fork"....something like that ...i dont know much about THAT fork.I just know ki "fork" command is used to make child process in unix.. :D ...one more thing about fork SRK had told me thrice.."jindagi me tumhe 2 raste milenge 1 par starting me bahot achcha package, onsite, work environment(specially good gals), milege..aur dusre par jara less package, bahot saara kaam , hardwok milega.......etc etc etc" he must hav told u also....but stilll i dont know on which way im leading. i have to ask SRK @it , will let u know once get this querry resolved.. :D....

hey hey hey enough kidding...so what to do then.."aap bore to nahi ho rahe na ???" but no escape..u gonna miss maze bore karane so this one is some extra dose..

me too will miss many thing..realy many..my ID 37873 (which is palindrome number), waghmaam , kingbird, ASKA, rupapp,TMSC, scheduler, bugs, timesheet, telecon,WSR, nasu, VnV n build ,and Windows Native and canteen. but apart from all these i gonna miss U all ppl. i gonna miss patil che childhood,tyachi chaal,50+weight . raje chya gappa, kisse, aajarpan, illogical justifications. mahesh

che PJ, tyache porinche kisse, vichitra hair styila,late coming,late siting.manasiD che aagav/khavat mhanane, chidane ani japan chya yerzarya. i gonna miss manasiB chi nonstop badbad, flopsongs chi playlist and maha pakau jokes, varada che "bore hone" ani high pitch sound ani sharvari che complete hand(right from shoulder) tondavar theun hasne n 7 feet height.who will forget jigarbhai's funde? i will miss those. i gonna miss omkar che hairs cha smell ghet long, neverending, confusing, redundent, ambiguious sentence bolane. I strongly believe that thr should be some KANJI for "Omkar". Shipad is like govinda of "sawal dus crore " khud hi joke marata hai khud hi hasta hai...but some of his jokes are really award winning . i gonna miss alibhai's cute, childlike,miscichivious smile. Asawari cha mature look .kritti's "basanti" type eshtyle. Alka's ultrasoft voice(can we use it for Ultra-sound? (huh huh huh ......) ).SwatiG's half cup tea. shantanu's "basically".sucheta che 'wah' karun smile .and yogesh san? his whole 5feet body is dedicated to windows native. i think he is very much involved in native emotionally . because of yogesh-neelam san onsite stay was much 'homely'(is it a word ? if not plz add it) who gonna give me review comments more lenghty than the task itself. will miss 'technoman' vaibhav. shriram karwa's blindly forwarded mail with his expert opinion(too cute/good/chill). poonam's dedication towards scheduler and her mail-o-holic-ness-pana. Will miss Swatik’s “pisalya”.

enough ??? "aap bore to nahi ho rahe ho" but still no escape..u gonna ...................................

Company is not only its turnover, its client/projects, its building, its market value. Company is not only compensation, client interaction or platform/domain. It is not about company policies, facilities. It is not about having 1 PCO in 234 employees. Rather Company means its people, colleagues, friends (I think that’s why it is called as ‘company’?).

so everything will be same except......... u wont see my name in Timesheet defaulter's list, Contact.xls, no file will be checkout by 'amolwagh'..no mails TO/FROM ----.--------@patni.com.. koni satat tumchi khechanara nasel.... nothing like "this is WXYZ for....." in WSR.

guys some things i want to tell you before going.....printer server is changed to \\hdcprsrv and LHS printer means left side printer while going "out", do make simset ON after systune, "varachya dll/lib replace kara", for most of the aska troubleshooting restart the ASKA, first StartFSYS n then StartComBox.... ohh me gelyavar kase honar ahe yaar :D

so now time for some funde/filosofical advice..

Plz dont devide ur life into developement week and testing week, swipe in and swipe out.. thr is more to life than this. but Thanks for making my developement and testing weeks memorable and time betwn swipe in and out enjoyable. those 8-10 hrs wr really very good hrs of my day. i was lovin it. kadhi kadhi companit ale nahi ki bore vhayache.. aso

we will surely meet....somewhre in theatre, shopping mall, on road, in hotel/restaurant/bar/temple/park, possibly somewhr in the loo or some compani's walk-in drives. possibly in some marrige/engagement/ maternity home/hospital. but we will meet..

now enough....

if u have any querries regarding this mail or didnt understand some jokes/statements plz let me know my mail address is --------@gmail.com.
(hey sorry for any comments ..no hard feelings)
All the besht guys khup study kara ani khup mothe vha..

See you soon.
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Some Last Breaths @ patni (Official Edition)

Dear all,

And the day has come, my last working day at Patni. It is actually a mixed feeling.
I really had very good colleagues, excellent friends and supportive seniors.
My experience working over here was indeed very enriching both personally and professionally.
I enjoyed every bit, every breath here. I will definitely cherish all the moments I spent with you all.
Thank u all for touching my life in one way or the other and I would like to extend this relationship even beyond organizational barriers.
Do stay in touch.

Wishing you all the very best,
---- --------

Quiteus !

And then I came to know frustration,tension has become an integral part of my life. Did u ever felt that u r not suited to live/or not applicable to live ?…I think "qualified" is a better term. i am living in a very ideal world, all my thoughts r so ideal that I cant bear ppl behaving so practically. Like m living a very bookish life where thr are chapters like “to be good to all”, “never hurt neone”.. .. I started expecting things like those from others too. But thr r too many 'out of syllabus' chapters coming while u live. Im not prepared for it n I cant cope with them . M not able to take up resposibility, im losing confidence that I can take good decisions, im holding on some believes that doent exists, living on some waste filosofies that looks good in books/blackboard only. Somewhere unconsiously thr is feeling of ending this all. Im bold enough to write it down :D . I boldly remember the thing that saneguruji attempted suicide when they realize that, this world is not suited for him. This is the thing I remember boldly rather than "Shyamchi Aai" or "Sadhana" of him. Same with Curt Cobain.. somewhere im feeeling the same sometime. I cant bear tension, I cant lie (means even if I do, I get caught or felt so bad.), I believe in ppl readily, I think all r good, I never hide anything, im not kinda person who get nething by hook or crook.. I belive in performance, I m idealist about my work, I don’t care wat ppl think of me but same time I m curious abt thr opinion. I want to be good to everyone..so on and long ideal list.. but many a times im wrong. I get involve in some person/relations very quickly. Ok enough.. the thing is I think im not qualified to live here.. but ...but if this is the end of this post it should not be..but I don’t like tragic end of film , posts , stories .. so the last statement is..if u r not qualified then its always better to learn and get qualification..though thr is not certification cource/institute which can give me qualification…I need to live and learn while living..