Sunday, August 31, 2008
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Monday, August 11, 2008
HAPPRY FRIENDSHIP DAY, ALEX
ALEX ,
SHALL I CALL U ALEXANDER SUPERTRAMP OR CRISTOPHER MCCANDLESS ? IT IS SAID IN 'DR. ZIVAGO' “…TO CALL EACH THING BY ITS RIGHT NAME.” BUT DOES IT MATTER ? FOR ME U ARE “ALEX WITH THE HAT ON” OR “ALEX FROM
THIS LETTER IN UPPERCASE/CAPITAL IS JUST TO REMIND U, JUST LIKE U USED TO WRITE IN
DO U REMEMBER ON
DID I TELL YOU @ MY FAST LAST YEAR? USUALLY I DON’T EAT MUCH. I DON’T BELIEVE IN EATING MORE THAN U NEED AND WANT MY NEEDS TO BE AS LESS AS POSSIBLE. SO BEING GR8 CHICKEN ‘ADDICT’ I DECIDED TO OBSERVE COMPLETE FAST FOR 9-10 DAYS. NOTHING RITUAL, NOTHING LIKE ‘NAWAS’. SAME FEELING LIKE URS “THE CLIMATIC
AND THEN COMES LOVE. I DON’T KNOW WAT WLD I REACT WHEN
BUT U KNOW WHAT IS THE MOST SIMILAR THING BETWEEN U
TO KNOW U MORE I STARTED READING TOLSTOY, BUT COULDN’T PURSUE IT LONGER. BUT STILL THE PART I KNOW THEM, I TOTALLY AGREE WITH THEM AND WITH U ALEX. “I HAVE LIVED THROUGH MUCH AND NOW I THINK I HAVE FOUND WHAT IS NEEDED FOR HAPPINESS.A QUITE SECLUDED LIFE IN THE COUNTRY WITH THE POSSIBILITY OF BEING USEFUL TO PEOPLE TO WHOM IT IS EASY TO DO GOOD AND WHO ARE NOT ACCUSTOMED TO HAVE IT DONE TO THEM AND WORK WHICH ONE HOPES MAY BE OF SOME USE THEN REST , NATURE, BOOKS, MUSIC, LOVE FOR ONE’S NEIGHBOUR. SUCH IS MY IDEA OF HAPPINESS AND THEN ON TOP OF THAT, YOU FOR A MATE AND CHILDREN PERHAPS. WHAT MORE CAN THE HEART OF THE MAN DESIRE ?” FAMILY HAPPINESS –BY TOLSTOY. I THINK THIS IS THE END, THE REASON, THE AIM OF YOUR LIFE… OUR LIFE. AND THEN U LEFT
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
There should be...
Monday, August 4, 2008
This Love has got no ceiling !!!
Then I asked her “when I watched “Notebook” I remembered V, is this love?” she kept mum. Then sometime later I asked her “I feel good when V is around, is this love?” she kept mum. “I don’t LIKE any girl other than V, is this love?” She still kept mum. And now here I am, after 4-5 years of friendship. I care for her. I care for her relationship with some other guy. I am trying to save that. I am confident about her career, worried about her PG. I am watching her walking, holding his hands on their so-called-anniversary. I am watching her pretending like aishwarya from raincoat, trying to save block holes of their relations. I am realizing the respect for my emotions going down, down on low priority. I don’t remember what dress she wore, don’t remember her body, I didn’t feel anything :D , never had her in my wildest fantasies. I am seeing myself listening to their stories ,pretending to be interested and holding myself. Joking and creating irrelevant topics to make her speak. I am seeing myself wishing her on her birthday and their so-called-anniversary though she forgot mine. No ego, no masks, nothing!! Now I want to ask her “Is this Love?” For the first time I am confident. I know IT IS. I LOVE her. But don’t know whether she will keep mum as usual or …..
----trying to find the answer of the question 'NOT telling her the truth' i came across this..
This Love is beyond the study of theology,
that old trickery and hypocrisy.
If you want to improve your mind that way,
sleep on.
I've given up on my brain.
I've torn the cloth to shreds
and thrown it away.
If you're not completely naked,
wrap your beautiful robe of words
around you,
and sleep.